About Joys and Trials

"Rejoice not against me, O mine enemy: when I fall, I shall arise; when I sit in darkness, the LORD shall be a light unto me." ~Micah 7:8 (KJV)

Thursday, July 29, 2010

Can't believe it

Can't believe that Ayla is now 6 months old. That Sean and I'll be moving in with our friends Nick and Kimmie in about a month, and that I'm getting married in 2 months. Can't believe my first night of training at the Allenton McDonald's is tomorrow night. Things are so crazy right now. With the bridal shower on Aug. 28th at 2pm at mom and dad's and then dress shopping (yep, haven't done that yet) on Sept. 11th. and then the wedding on Sept. 25th. Have registered at www.bedbathandbeyond.com and www.target.com. What's not on one, is more than likely on the other. Gift cards? the visa's are preferable....I love the fact that you can use those anyone....someone actually had a good idea. ;) lol. Master Gardener meeting tonight...the first I've been to in a while. This will be a good time for me to let them all know what's happening...so I don't really talk to them any other times. lol.

Ayla's not "crawling", but she's definitely moving. Face-down and scoot! lol. She loves the jump-a-roo that's currently at Sean's parent's house. It will be coming here this weekend and the saucer seat that is here will be going to my mom and dad's house, since there's another seat for her at Dawn and Harold's.

This week's schedule for McDonald's I have 42 hours...not a bad amount of pay...as well as the time spent at orientation. I do wish that their pay system was a little more regular....we get paid such weird days...but ah well. need to ask Pam bout splittin my direct deposit...so i don't have to go to the bank and pull the money from one to put it into the other....I don't currently have online banking, and mom's name is only on the one account....so she can't do it for me.....ah well. lol.

Sean brings me roses on occasion, just because.....I'm really glad that I met him...He takes care of Ayla and me, and I couldn't ask for more...(sappy I know. but get over it.)


other than that, I think that tha's bout it.

Thursday, June 17, 2010

Latest news

Well, first off, my g and h keys don't work all the time...so if a word looks wrong....it's probably missin one of those letters....and I just get tired of constantly tappin them to get them to work. :(

Aside from that, Sean and I have picked a weddin date. It will be an informal one, the guys will be in slacks and collared shirts, and us girls in dresses... I've ot the one that I want already picked out.....just tryin to decide if I want red or white, since it is a dress that I can wear after the weddin as well for whatever. White's more traditional, but with it goin to be an any day dress as well....that's a hard color to have with little kids around. lol. Oh, yeah...the date. We will be etting married on Sept. 18th. We're oing to talk to Sean's sister and see if one of her judge friends would be willin to come down and do the ceremony. It'll be at his parent's place in Labadie. Not set a time yet....but I'm thinking maybe 2ish....since we'll be having people from out of state. Am oin to try to get details mostly arranged with his mom this weekend...or atleast start getting the ideas organized. lol. If I don't have your current mailin address please make sure that I do get it. It would be very helpful as we make up the guest-list. it'll probably be a limited list, so I can't guarantee that everyone will et invited.... I'll ave to find out how many people she's willin to have wandering through her house.

Other than that.
My cousin Mark Coomer was killed 2 sundays ago, and that same nite, Mitchell and Jessica's boyfriend Jeffery were in a car wreck on St Mary's Rd. Scared the livin daylights out of me and Jessica who were drivin behind them.
Mitch and Jeffery are both fine. Mitch has a bruised vertebrae, and a mild concussion. Both he'll be just fine....just has to watch how hard he hits his head on somethin....it's be best if he just avoided it all together....but knowing him, that won't happen.
Aside from that, thins have calmed back down. Am workin at ECC's Cafe Central for the June/July period. Then I'll have to find another job. Sean and I'll be movin in with our friends Nick and Kimmie after the lease on the apartment is up in August.
Sean's oing to apply for St. Louis County Police. We're hopin he gets it. But we'll have to wait and see. He's currently hating his job at Esselte. He says he'll stay until he ets sometin else....but it's hard to et benefits when he's still only part time throuh manpower and doesn't know if/when they'll hire him on full time.....so he's looking at other options....which is fine with me.

Ayla's gotten so big. She's rollin and chatterin. Teethin too.....there's been a few nites when the only way to soothe her as she was sleepin and cryin was to stick the teethin ring in her mouth.

I think that's pretty much it for now.

Thursday, April 22, 2010

Spring time

Things have been going pretty good all around. Sean's working through Manpower at Esselte in Union. Hoping he'll get put on full time, but so far it's just a hope. He goes Tuesday to talk to an Army recruiter. He may enlist. :( But unfortunately it's the best option he has to get the money needed, and the healthcare benefits...thanks to the reform passing. It's hard to believe how fast this past year has flown by, quite literally. I'll be 21 in just a few weeks. It's absolutely crazy. Things have kinda gone downhill at the apartment with the roommates. Sean and I will both be happy when we have our own place and don't have to put up with the roomies trash, to say the least. lol.
Starting to look for another job, though I'm hoping I'll be able to stay with Ayla full-time and not worry bout it...but we'll see what happens. Thankfully Sean has no problem with me being a stay at home mom. Hopefully things will work out money wise so that i'll be able to do that. We'll see what happens. sorry it's been so long since I last updated this. Things have been crazy and hectic, and others have been just plain stupid and ridiculous. lol. Will try to do a better job of keeping this up to date. Tha's it for now. Ayla's now 12 weeks old. no clue how many pounds/ounces...all i know is it's getting harder to carry her in the carseat. lol.

Friday, February 19, 2010

Another update

She's gassy as ever. lol. I feel bad for her..and the Mylicon drops do very little for her. But she's not constipated, so that's good...that would just add to her misery. She had a hard time falling asleep again after her 2:30 feeding....so I put her on the boppy pillow and laid it next to me. She fell asleep just before 4am, and slept till bout 7:30 and slept more after that. I was able to get a shower in without her waking up. *^_^* lol.
Right now she's laying on the boppy pillow in my lap and making noises. She ate a little....she's too gassy to eat a whole lot. Her stomach gets so tight, I sit here and massage it for her, which helps a little. I was pumping her legs yesterday, and she spit up on my pillow. lol.
Went to see the surgeon yesterday to let him know how I am doing. He said the knots could come to the surface, which would explain the bump in one of the incisions that I can feel, but he said it's nothing to worry bout, so I'm not. Back to the OB on Tuesday for the 4 week follow-up.
March 4th is my WIC appointment, and when I take Ayla back for a weight check-up. She was up to 9lb at the last appointment. It's hard to believe she's already 3 weeks old. Time's flying by too quickly.

I'm really grateful to her Grandma Dawn for being so willing to watch her. Sean and I were able to go on a date on the 14th, and are going on one again this Sunday. It's good for Ayla, so she can get used to not being with me all the time. She apparently raised quite a holler last Sunday, and settled pretty quick as soon as I held her. She knows Mommy, tha's for sure. Biggest thing is getting her to recognize Daddy, which is hard since she only sees him occasionally. Hopefully spending the weekend with him will help out a lot.

Rotated Ayla onto her stomach on the boppy....she's falling asleep. lol. She's still gassy, but I think it's helping to relieve the pain. Don't worry, when I put her in the crib she'll be on her back.

Have more pics on Facebook for those of you who have that, and more on my Picasa page for those who got that email. (namely those without Facebook. *^_^* ).

Tha's about it for now. *^_^*

Tuesday, February 2, 2010

She's here.

Ayla Isabel Stockton was born January 27, 2010 at 8:17 am. She was 8lbs, 9oz and 21in long.
Ayla, Sean and I are all doing well. Ayla is great and hardly ever fusses and is getting to where she barely fusses when her diaper or clothes are changed.
I am recovering quite well from my surgery, and am able to lift her out of her crib. Our room is slowly regaining order as I regain my strength and energy. I go in a few weeks to see the surgeon again for a follow uo, and 3 weeks to see the OB for another.
During delivery, although it went well, I had no strength or energy, (probably due to the gallbladder attacks) and a vac was used to bring Ayla into the world.
Had my gallbladder removed on Saturday, and started to make a decent recovery shortly after being returned to my room. Ayla and I finally left the hospital on Sunday, which we were all glad to be finally leave.
She is amazingly alert, and rarely fusses. She had her first bath last night, and didn't make a sound.....maybe cause she had been fed before hand? lol.
I think if I let her she would almost sleep the whole night as well. She's come close a few times, but I woke her up to feed her.
I've been blessed with this little girl, her Daddy and I both love her and are very happy with our little-bit.

Monday, January 25, 2010

7 days and counting

Well, we have a car seat, will have to get a few more bases for it, so that we're not constantly switching that out. Planning on getting a packable playpen as well, but that can wait a bit.
Haven't felt any real pain since yesterday. Occasionally I'll feel a twinge in my back, but not near the point it's been at. Which I'm extremely thankful for. Was able to get a decent amount of sleep, although I was still pretty groggy at 8:30 when my body let me know that I wasn't allowed to lay in bed any longer. So I moved to the couch and dozed there till about noon. That helped a lot too. Still quite a bit tired, but after all the stress and pain this weekend, I'm not surprised. Sean's tired too, but he had it pretty stressful too.
OB appointment tomorrow. Am curious to see what they say after my check-up there. Blood pressure looks like it's going back to my normal range, so we're happy about that, and since it's been doing good, I've not been doing much bedrest. Still not doing any chores or cleaning around the apartment (although it needs it) but I'm not laying down as much, and sitting up more. Which is nice. lol.
Hopefully my blood pressure stays down where it should be.
It's 6:34pm, so I think I'll make it to the OB tomorrow without incident, although I'm not making that an absolute. It wouldn't really surprise me if I started feeling the contractions again.
Nurse practitioner at the OB's office called this morning to see how my bp was doing. We had told her Friday when she had called that I was having chest pains, she sounded surprised today to hear that it was contractions....mom thought it was heartburn or gas, she thought it was nothing. Both were wrong. Oh well. Mom and I don't really care for the NP at Dr Lange's office, but when he's booked or out of town, not much we can do. He's back in town, but since he was gone, he's completely booked appt wise tomorrow, so we'll have to see her again. But we can talk to him if we have any questions. I might do that. I don't know for sure. We'll see how tonight and tomorrow night goes, but I'll probably see what he wants to have planned in case I have the contractions that bad again, I know that some of that will depend on the results of my check-up tomorrow.
Keep your fingers crossed.
Tha's about it for tonight. Will post again tomorrow or Wednesday.

Sunday, January 24, 2010

False Alarms

Am so sick of them. Went today to the hospital for the 3rd time. Contractions started this morning at 3am, got worse at 6am, let up at about 9am and restarted about 10am. But, as there was no further progress, I was sent home, again. Was given a shot, I was told would either ease the pain, and allow me to rest, or would send me into labor. Luckily I was able to get some rest, which I needed a lot. Next OB appointment is Tuesday. I'm hoping that I'll make it that long. Blood pressures are looking good. Have chiropractor on Wednesday and Friday, and MG meeting on Wednesday night. I'm hoping that I'll be able to make them all, the meeting especially. I don't wanna miss out on that. I'm really looking forward to it, but to make it to those depends on what my body's doing, and whether or not mom is able to take me, cause I'm really not driving myself at this point.
My contractions usually last for about 5 1/2 hours, today was the longest time, and the worst ones. The shot that I got has helped, still not feeling the pain 8 hours later, but I've been itching like crazy on my face and feet. Friend thinks it's probably a mild allergic reaction. Mom says to mention it next time I go in to hospital or Tuesday when I see the nurse practitioner, whichever comes first.
Am hoping the OB appointment comes first.
At this point I'm at 1cm, 75% and -2. No real change since last night in that case.
Other than that, I can't really think of anything else, but then my mind is slightly groggy from the meds, not majorly, just enough that I have a hard time remembering things....(just a bit worse than normal. *^_^*)
Will keep updating.

Thursday, January 21, 2010

This bites

Am on bed-rest till further notice. Borrowing a digital blood pressure cuff, have to monitor bp and Ayla's activity tonight and over the weekend. Today was my 3rd visit to the OB, the 2nd time for bp tests. Had blood work done Tuesday. Go back next Tuesday for normal checkup and followup on bp. My bp is fine when I'm laying down, but elevates when I'm sitting, and really spikes after even a little activity on my part....getting up to use the restroom is apparently enough to cause it to spike. Blood work was decent, and everything else checks out too.
Back to Washington tomorrow night. Will still have to be good while I'm there, and remain in bed, but I'm still going. Am so glad that Sean got me this wireless keyboard and mouse set....it's really come in handy right now. makes it easy enough to lay down and still type.
2 chiropractor visit next week, Wednesday and Friday. Got a meeting Wednesday night for the Pacific Beautification Project, which I get to help out with. I feel like I've become the secretary for our group in the Franklin County Master Gardeners. Looks like the Oh_Niners are going to be doing the Beautification Project. Oh_Niners being the name that we gave ourselves as graduates of the 2009 course, to distinguish ourselves from others in the FC Master Gardener Program. It's worked out great. We have our own yahoo group....which if you have questions bout something in your yard or garden you can email the group at Oh_Niners@yahoogroups.com. Someone from the group will respond and help out the best they can.
Monday will make it a week to the given due date. Looks like as long as I have no other issues besides the elevated bp, then I wont have to worry bout having a c-section if it's not necessary. Will try to deliver Ayla naturally. I don't know if I'll get an epidural....something about having a needle stuck into my spine just doesn't sit well with me. lol.
Other than all of that. I don't think there's much else. :)

Friday, January 15, 2010


Well, I was going to paint. But I've been told flat out by my sister that I am not to go near the paint or the brushes. She's supposed to be over all day tomorrow to paint. If that actually happens, is another story completely. Lol.
I am so bored sitting around the house with nothing to do. I have to be careful, since I'm not doing much, it's very easy to just start eating constantly...and while mom says i should 'graze' i hate eating all the time, and being hungry all the time really frustrates me. Lol.
Back into Washington tonight. OB on Tuesday, Chiro on Wednesday, and have to schedule another Chiro appt for next week, probably Friday....since she wants me to come 2x a week. Monday makes it 2 weeks to given due date. Still honestly think I'm going to be late, and the OB seems pretty confident that I won't be early after my last visit.
Other than that, I was asked to help out with this:
Which I gladly accepted, and Jessica's offered to babysit for me already so I can help out, which is great. That means that John's not the only one closer to getting his 30 hrs for his first year in the MG program. *^_^* can't wait!

Tha's bout it for now. :)

Thursday, January 14, 2010


Mom's getting a crib mattress, so that's one thing taken care of...found a lady who was getting rid of a spare, so we get it for free. and it's in good condition...which is great. lol. so she'll be picking that up.
ECC classes don't start until the 19th, so i won't have the car seat until about that time, if my friend remembers to bring it to mom. lol. in either case, if we get it from her, or have to buy one, we're going to have to get several bases, seeing as how both sets of grandparents will need a base, and sean and i'll both need a base....although, with my car, i wouldn't need one for long until i can get a new car...which is frustrating, as i don't have a job, and don't have money right now....
Am approved for medicaid, but it expires two months after Ayla is born, so i'll have to reapply for both of us, but i don't think that i'll have too much trouble with that.
Other than that, still tired. feet are still swollen, and feel bruised, although they don't look it at all.
Am going to try to paint a bit today. i feel fine one minute and then completely wiped out the next. -sigh-
tha's it for today.

Wednesday, January 13, 2010

3 weeks left....or so the doc says

The doc says my due date is Feb. 1st... I think that I'm going to be late. But tha's just my hunch. Guess we'll find out for sure in just a few weeks. lol.
Went to the chiro today. Supposed to go back 2x next week. Looks like I'm approved for medicaid...will have to reapply after Ayla is born to get her covered as well, but at least it's a start. lol. A friend is supposed to drop off a car seat with mom at school for me. Hopefully she won't forget. A car seat and crib mattress are the two biggest things left that I need right now. Mom's planning on picking up the mattress soon.
Bedroom is being repainted...mostly by Jessica....I'd like to help, but I've not been feeling that great lately. Will be glad when this is all over.

Tha's about it for now. Will try to post on the blog more often than I have in the past. *^_^*

Friday, January 8, 2010

Almost there

This coming Monday makes it 3 weeks left to the due date given by the doc. Dad's betting I'm late, another friend is betting I'm early. Doc says long as I don't have her before the 25th we're good....he's out of town till then..lol.
Personally, I think I'm going to be late...my body's never really worked well with schedules like this. lol. the only schedule it's kept is always being awake before the alarm goes off. but I've got a feeling Ayla won't be born on the 1st...just a hunch...guess we'll find out if that hunch is wrong or not. so much stuff i got...so much more I need. still no car seat or crib mattress...which those are the major 2 things at this point.
But I know I'll get them one way or another. Thanks to everyone who came to my shower!